The purpose of this blog has to be personal, for now. Hopefully one day it will move in a more professional and informative direction. However, for now I must keep it centered on the collective mass and energy that is myself and my ideas.

You see, I need it for sanity.

I'm terrified of telling the internet my identity for fear of repression of my future and future freedoms. And I live in a free country.

I am a young woman caught up in a situation that is utterly strange in nature. I have been honored with the privilege and luck of food, a good house, and even great clothes to wear. But I'm ungrateful. Why?

Well, because everything didn't work out, dear world. It just didnt work out.

I really grew up believing I would go through college and achieve my dreams. I would become a veterinarian or a doctor, and I would make a difference. ME. And to the world, I am. Because I'm a soldier.

I will go no further with those details for now, although my highest hope is that I will eventually do that.

My name is "Trianka." and I am an unhappy woman in a first world country. I need to make sense of that, because you can relate.